(poem)

I just don't understand, why can't I have another chance?
And how are you going to give it to me if you won't listen?
I'm trying to prove myself, but no.
It doesn't make a difference.
I'm tired of trying and I don't want to do this.
Here's my token of love: A kiss.
It's not much...but it's all I've got.
I've numbed myself to all the pain.
I think I've had enough of this rain.
I've failed the game.
I can't press start and do it all again.
That's in fantasy land.
The real world is hard.
It's got it's weapons loaded and they fire at someone till death.
Well, the world has fired at me long enough.
They've stuffed me with enough plastic to be a fake to last me 4 lifetimes.
Is there even really a God??
Is so, send me a sign!
I'm tired of being someone I'm not.
I've pretended long enough.
No more for me.
I love you all, but don't cry please.
Thank you for what you've done.
I won't forget, even in death.
Once again, I love you all.